Snapshots Of The Bigger Picture

There is a strong link between my depression and my perfectionism. When I’m down it’s often from trying to control the uncontrollable. And when my projects end up flawed I blame myself for being human.

I spend many days anticipating disaster. I put the “hyper” in hyper-vigilant. But what if the worst is over? Sure, there’s still plenty of heartache ahead, but it’s all survivable. What if I’m living like the worst is waiting around the corner when I’ve already pushed through my darkest days?

Instead of nitpicking minutiae I need to keep my eye on the bigger picture. I have a place to live, food, access to health care, the ability to respond to the world, and opportunities to improve myself and the lives of others.

I love and I am loved. It sounds simple but it’s magnificent. It’s enough to make a sensitive guy prone to overthinking give up trying for perfection.

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One response to “Snapshots Of The Bigger Picture

  1. Tom Trebswether

    You are correct. In 2008 and 2009 when the economy tanked and me and the boys at work got our hours cut we were all pissed off. After feeling sorry for myself I stopped and looked at the big picture. I told the guys to knock off the self pity. I told them to look at everything they have. Wives and children that love them. Food and homes to live in. A few bucks saved for retirement. After my dad died in 1971 I told my mom that I wanted to be a millionaire. She asked me why. I said, then I would be happy. She shook her head at me and said that happiness is doing something you like and having people that love and respect you. She was right.

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